Yes, I'm gay. I probably was since the day I was born. On my 21st birthday, I sort of had my debut. I came out to my parents. A little drama from mom, and some indifference from dad. An above-average coming out. Almost perfect.

Nine years later, two weeks before my 30th birthday, I found out... I'M HIV POSITIVE.

And so my story begins... I'm BACK IN THE CLOSET.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

My Love Bus

My Love BusWhen Australian band Bachelor Girl came up with their debut hit Buses and Trains back in the 90s, I instantly fell in love with the song. With a chorus of lyrics that went...

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

... I just thought this was the perfect ode to describe the hopeless romantic that I can be at times. Inspired, both by the song and some things that have been going on in my life in the past months, I came up with my own pathetic attempt at a love rhyme. Here goes.

My Love Bus

Down a dusty old path, baring body and soul
Like a trek with no end, it had taken its toll

I got used to walking with no one at my side
When you turned 'round the corner and offered a ride

Stared into your lights down to each shiny hub
Felt my heart skip a beat and I knew it was love

Hesitant at first to take a hitch like a whore
Now I can't help but wish there’s still room for one more

Just when I got so used to your soft comfy seat
You just left me wondering where and when we'll next meet

Are you gonna reroute or splash mud to the shin
Honestly I'd rather you stop and say "Hop in"

You said you'd be coming this way again real soon
Are you gonna slow down or fly by with a vroom?

You know where to find me, I got nowhere to go
Trying not to expect and yet can’t help but hope

It's lonely being "me", I would rather be "us"
I'll still be waiting...
Waiting for my big Love Bus

No, I'm not in love with a bus, a bus driver nor a bus conductor. There's such a thing as a metaphor, 'ya know! Don't bother asking who or what exactly triggered this... please? Whether my Love Bus picks me up or just runs me over, my biggest consolation is that I'm happy to realize I'm still capable of loving. Just take my emo-ness as you see it. Thank you. Bow.

Lecheng pag-ibig 'to...


Anonymous said...

hay naku.
let's talk in YM na lang when we're both online.

my vote still goes dun sa kapareho ko ng brand ng kotse. :p

PinoyPoz said...

bwahaha! you just couldn't stop yourself... :-D maybe i should put up a new site,

Anonymous said...

don't tempt me, i might put up one...sige ga, you'll be my guinea pig. hehehe :D

love ya hun! *hugs*