Yes, I'm gay. I probably was since the day I was born. On my 21st birthday, I sort of had my debut. I came out to my parents. A little drama from mom, and some indifference from dad. An above-average coming out. Almost perfect.

Nine years later, two weeks before my 30th birthday, I found out... I'M HIV POSITIVE.

And so my story begins... I'm BACK IN THE CLOSET.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

The Buzz!

the buzzIt’s been almost three months since I started this blog. I admit I’m not blogging as often as before, but probably because I’d been dealing with blow after blow of new discoveries, new issues, new problems, and new learnings, especially back in May. My learning curve has tapered off a bit by this time, but I know more is to come.

I was so shocked when I received my first comment from you guys on this blog. I never thought I’d get any feedback, let alone any readers. At this point, three months after, I probably have almost every sort of reader I could get. Every kind of person, from the poz and the not, from in and around the Philippines to beyond our humble shores, and from guys I’ve actually had the chance to meet to those who chose to peep from behind anonymity.

Initially blogging seemed to be a one way thing, where I bombard you with my information, and stuff it all down your gut. But it has evolved into more. So much in fact, that the online interactions I’ve made here have needed to break through the confines of the blogging world, and have spun off onto the e-mail, sms and instant messaging networks.

So this is for those who want to get in touch with me through IM. I’ve put a widget on my sidebar which will show if I’m online on Yahoo! Messenger or not. I tested it out a bit before finally putting it up, and so far it works fine.

Right now, I am .

I realize it’s pretty ironic for me to be treading the line that separates anonymity from notoriety, but I’m taking the risk of outing myself to maybe be of assistance to others who need support, sympathy, knowledge, or maybe even just entertainment.

I know at times I’ve been doubted, contradicted and maybe even dissed, but I’m just thankful for the time that’s been taken to hear my little story. Because in spite of that, I value most the sympathy and support that I get from you guys… it’s absolutely overwhelming. So if you wanna get in touch with me for anything… anything at all… just drop me a Buzz!

Three months doesn’t sound like much, but it’s been 90 days of introspection and being thankful for everything good I have. This blog has made my life a bit easier to live. So actually, more than being 90 days of keeping this blog alive, it’s more like this blog has been keeping me alive.

1 comment:

Beau said...

Hi Pinoy :-) nice to know that your friends (like me) may be able to get a chance to get in touch with you through YM :-) was about to ask how I can reach you hehe...as always here's a warm hug from yours truly :-)

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have a nice day my friend.