Yes, I'm gay. I probably was since the day I was born. On my 21st birthday, I sort of had my debut. I came out to my parents. A little drama from mom, and some indifference from dad. An above-average coming out. Almost perfect.

Nine years later, two weeks before my 30th birthday, I found out... I'M HIV POSITIVE.

And so my story begins... I'm BACK IN THE CLOSET.

Monday, January 11, 2010

I'd Rather Hear the Truth...

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken do you say
Do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever


But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken, do you mean
Do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

Bridge
You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

I was believing in you...

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow
by Vonda Shepard

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

*hug*

-calvin

Manech said...

:(

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Bruce Kho said...

i luuurrve this song. it reeks of heartache. i hope ure doing ok. lets talk about it soon

Anonymous said...

hi can you help me. i am hiv positive, a day ago, ive known i have one. can u email me pls.. what to do first, best hosp for rehab..pls january0014@yahoo.com

Trese said...

Mami... naku... dadami na naman anak mo! :)

PinoyPoz said...

@Calvin: Thanks for being there...

@Manech: :-)

@Bruce: Thanks for the reality check.

@Trese: IKR?! Keri!