Yes, I'm gay. I probably was since the day I was born. On my 21st birthday, I sort of had my debut. I came out to my parents. A little drama from mom, and some indifference from dad. An above-average coming out. Almost perfect.

Nine years later, two weeks before my 30th birthday, I found out... I'M HIV POSITIVE.

And so my story begins... I'm BACK IN THE CLOSET.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Jamming With Jinjin

Let’s call him JinJin. He had found me through this blog several months ago, and from there, we became chat buddies on YM. During the course of our chatting, he had gotten together with his current boyfriend, Odin, who just happens to be a blogger, too.

Jinjin had always been like a baby brother, as he shared with me most of his ups and downs, and ins and outs. Though we hadn’t met, he knew most of my dirty little secrets, and didn’t keep much from me either.

Even at just the prospect of meeting up, he was sooooo incredibly hesitant. He always said he was really shy and really quiet, which could result in a severe panisan-ng-laway episode if I was in a similarly anti-social mood myself... something which, as some may know, is not very foreign to me.

I actually had proposed to meet him along with Odin, just so they’d be more comfortable together. But as luck would have it, Jinjin finally gave in, and agreed to meet up and hang out for dinner this weekend.

Considering how we chat in YM, I imagined our meeting to go something like this: I would be waiting with my back towards the crowd. Someone would walk up behind me, and whisper, “Huy, pekpek...” Turning, I would be startled, saying “Putang inang kapre ka!” Then we would hug and maybe even beso-beso. Hahaha. But, of course, that would just be in my crazy world.

Saturday, shortly past 5:00 pm, I found myself waiting near the entrance of the mall nearest to his bus stop. He had told me he was tall. I knew he was of Chinese descent. So I was eyeing every guy that passed who fit that description, wondering to myself every time, Ito na kaya siya?

Finally, I noticed one guy approaching, but ended up thinking to myself, this can’t be him. This huge Chinese guy looked like he was going to beat me up. I was ready to run. Thankfully, he flashed a tiny smile, at which point I had my sigh of relief. Finally, Bitch met Jinjin.

As agreed, we headed off to find a coffee place to just break the ice and chill out. Indeed, he was really quiet to begin with. I could feel the tension and discomfort. Fine, I will be the not-so-shy one today. So after two hours filled with activities such as sharing the inside scoop on his relationship with Odin, testing our gaydars, comparing notes on blog hopping, even twitting a bit when wifi was available, he slowly crawled out of his shell, and pretty soon, he had lightened up and was more of the same chatty person that I had been communicating with online.

From there, we headed off to dinner at The Old Spaghetti House, something we’d already agreed upon a week before we met. Tucked safely into a far corner of the restaurant out of earshot of most of the other customers, we were again free to talk about anything and everything under the rainbow.

An appetizer basket, a classic lasagna, a baked ziti, and a supremo pizza later, without a single morsel of food left to spare, we were full and happy. After our waiter, Mark, brought us the bill... oh, don’t ask why the need for the first-name-basis... we headed off to do some walking, some more chatting and a bit of window shopping, even if the stores were already closed.

From there, we shook hands and went our separate ways, not forgetting a you’re-the-man thump of the chest just before we lost sight of each other. Hehehe. At the end of it all, it was great to finally meet the biggest baby brother I’ve ever had. Not to worry, there will be a second “date” sometime soon, with Odin this time.

To Jinjin, thanks for accepting me for who I am. You should do the same for yourself as well. You are a great guy, so quit undermining yourself. And with that, I dedicate a little tune to you... Here goes...

Boo Jinjin... Boo Jinjin... Ang lake lake...
Kung kumilos... Kumilos... Parang lang kapre...

Hehehe. But seriously, allow me some room to be cheesy.

To Odin, you got a big, sweet guy in Jinjin, with an even bigger heart. And aminin mo, he's hot! Hehehe. He really adores and loves you sooooo much, so just take good care of each other, and stay happy together for years and years to come. Awwwww... And see you soon!

12 comments:

wanderingcommuter said...

hahaha. nasa loob ang kulo ni jinjin! fiona peace, jinjin! hahaha!

PinoyPoz said...

Gosh, Wandy, di ko napansin yun... Chos!

Fiona talaga? How Animalandia ha... Hehehe.

E said...

:-D hindi ka na mahiyain?

PinoyPoz said...

Sorry, mahiyain pa rin ako. Pero linawin ko lang, iba yung mahiyain sa disente. Hahaha.

Yj said...

niyahahahaha natuwa ako sa kanta...

OMG gano ba siya kalaki?

PinoyPoz said...

Basta, napa-OMG din ako nung papalapit sya... Hehehe.

Turismoboi said...

may mga bagong kumare c bakla! hahahaha!

PinoyPoz said...

Asan?! Asan ang bakla?! Hehehe.

odin hood said...

ahihihi uu soon isama niyo na ako sa date niyo hahaha

there were actually times na worried ako pag inaaway ko siya, kasi alam ko wala siya iba sumbungan that time bukod sakin. kaya sobrang thankful ako naging friends kayo ng 'ugok' na yun hahaha

tsup tsup mwah mwah

PinoyPoz said...

Hehe, sige para akong ninong nyo sa kasal diba. Wow, ang sweet mo naman, may tsuptsupan at mwahmwahan kaagad... Ay parang ang panget pakinggan diba... Hehehe.

Mr. Komplikado said...

Ang saya saya naman ng blogworld. Daming mga friendships! =)

word verification: sitrat (umupo daw ang daga)

daned said...

so sweet of you pinoy poz... cute ng kanta hehehe... ingat.parang may talent ka sa paggawa ng novelty songs ahh... hehehe