Yes, I'm gay. I probably was since the day I was born. On my 21st birthday, I sort of had my debut. I came out to my parents. A little drama from mom, and some indifference from dad. An above-average coming out. Almost perfect.

Nine years later, two weeks before my 30th birthday, I found out... I'M HIV POSITIVE.

And so my story begins... I'm BACK IN THE CLOSET.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

You Changed My Life

I never really got used to watching movies at cinemas.

First of all, with the tickets and the food and beverages, it can get quite expensive. Nope, I don’t buy pirated either. Second, it just seems like such a waste of time to spend over two hours just watching the movie, when I could eventually catch in on the boob tube and do something else like cut my toenails at the same time. Third, I just can’t decide on the best time to watch. There are times with huge crowds, which makes me claustrophobic. On the other hand, there are off peak showings, where sex-starved excuses for human beings prowl in the shadows of the theater.

But lo and behold, I swore to myself that I’d watch You Changed My Life at the movie theater sometime soon. I know I’ve expressed my Kapamilya tendencies before, but not being overly fanatic about John Lloyd Cruz and Sarah Geronimo, what really caught my attention was the theme song of the movie.

I’ve always loved the song, ever since The Company did their rendition more than a decade ago. But lately, its spell over me has been revived, and I’ve been humming and singing it for the past few weeks.

Why this song? I can relate to it, right here, right now. Lines like...

The nights the sky was filled with clouds
My worried mind was filled with fear
...

I never thought that I could change
Could change so much in so many ways
...

I'm still surprised when I look in my mirror
To see that I still look the same
...

and

You changed my life in a moment
And I'll never be the same again
...


just make me reflect upon where I am in life, and gasp in amazement at how perfectly this song fits me and my life. I can’t wait to see the movie.

Hey, wait a minute. Before you go kilig-kilig on me, let me just explain, why exactly I can relate.

You Changed My Life... HIV. In a good way, of course. Hehehe.

7 comments:

MrCens said...

nice to read these from you bitch... full of love, of hope, of courage.

basta may buhay, may pag-asa. by reading this post,

You changed my life in a moment
And I'll never be the same again...

Anonymous said...

Haha! Go see the movie. I've seen it myself and enjoyed it a lot. Great to feel kilig once in a while. And yes, the song is great too and sarah's rendition is great. -- excited stranger

PinoyPoz said...

Like someone told me, change is ALWAYS good. I'm slowly trying to convince my afraid-of-change self of that. :-)

ako na nga! said...

bad trip ka BITCH.

i got a huge laugh from you when i told you that i want to watch it again.

excited ka rin pala, hahaha. =)

~yAnaH~ said...

i saw a different side of you in this post bitch... ahihihihi...

oist.. pauwi na ko..
hope to see you ..

MrCens said...

bitch, change is (always) good!

i remember na kung sino ang may sabi nito, si bb gandanghari. it was the end line of his tv ad about the kidlat awards in boracay, hehehe...

hope to see you bitch.

PinoyPoz said...

hahaha, NOOOOO! it was not bb gandanghari for me. it was a close friend. *wink, wink*