Yes, I'm gay. I probably was since the day I was born. On my 21st birthday, I sort of had my debut. I came out to my parents. A little drama from mom, and some indifference from dad. An above-average coming out. Almost perfect.

Nine years later, two weeks before my 30th birthday, I found out... I'M HIV POSITIVE.

And so my story begins... I'm BACK IN THE CLOSET.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

A Positive Day

POSITIVISM.PHThanks to President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo, December 1st was declared a national holiday. It really doesn’t make sense to have to move a holiday that already fell on a weekend, but who am I to turn down a long weekend? More time to rest. But I was expecting it to be a boring one.

Friday night was nothing more than an early-to-bed thing, after turning down a dinner invitation after my long day at work. Saturday didn’t prove me wrong either, although someone did ask me out on a date, but cancelled last minute. I just ran some errands at the bank and the local mall instead. Sunday wasn’t shaping up to be any better, especially since it was drizzling most of the morning. Yawn.

This was until I got an unexpected message... Drum roll, please...

The Positivism.ph team was aiming for December 1st as a launch date for the e-magazine, in time for World AIDS Day. And aim we did. But despite everyone working their asses off on this project, it seemed we’d missed our mark. I last checked for updates Friday, but so far there was no definite word whether we’d make it or not. I even checked the URL, but still saw some generic portal page probably put up by the site host. It wasn’t imaginable to even expect the team to work over the weekend.

But unexpectedly, I received a text message from our Positivism.ph big boss earlier this afternoon. Positivism teaser page is up! :) I don’t even remember what I replied, because I was on the net within a minute, eager to see what was up. This was exactly what I saw...


To say I was excited was an understatement. I was shaking! I admit, too, I was on the verge of tears, but I told myself “Snap out of it, sissy boy!” I logged on to Yahoo! Messenger and bombarded all my contacts with the great news. One friend who was online thought I made the teaser myself, trying to make sense of my excitement. I said no, but that I was just part of the project. I found E online as well, and was relieved to hear that he was feeling the rush, too. At least I wasn’t being crazy alone.

So there. It took me a couple of hours to calm down enough to start writing this entry. It may be just a teaser, but for me, it’s a ray of hope for those affected by HIV, which is practically everyone.

I doubt if December 1st will see droves of Filipinos coming out to truly celebrate World AIDS Day, but for this pusit, there certainly is much to celebrate. As the teaser says, change is coming.

Go check it out yourselves at http://positivism.ph/ and watch out for more. Help us spread the news, too!

POSITIVISM.PH
Congratulations, everyone!

9 comments:

E said...

this is it my friend! The start of something great!! I'm so excited!

jett said...

stay negative, think positive..

nice!!

just bloghopped...

PinoyPoz said...

Haha, same here, E!!!

Thanks for dropping by, Jett...

BLACKPOOL said...

i have bookmarked the site! yes this is it positivism has all my support.....

it has to move greatly!!!

MkSurf8 said...

i also like the tagline. ;-)

u all have our support. ;-)

PinoyPoz said...

Thanks BlackPool and MkSurf8!

Kiks said...

wahoo. ilove it.

go for it boy.

PinoyPoz said...

Thanks Kikster!!! Wahooooooo!!!

Cheers to the Positivism team... This is for everyone who's affected by HIV... which is... everyone!

edgar said...

nice website...for those people who have AIDS and HIV....POSITIVISM TEAM your rock guys!!!